ENTRY #2

THIS IS ME

An aspect that truly defines me is the way in which I analyse circumstances happening around me from the very beginning I become aware of them. I do not know if I can be conceived as a good observer, but my mistrustful way of looking -which can generate either distrust or an instantaneous good chemistry at the moment of getting to know other people- has led both to enjoy great moments in my life and to avoid getting into several situations that have turned out to be terrible problems. Personally, I consider that a precise power of discernment makes people establish detailed criteria of the things they want for their lives, the aims they want to achieve and the people they want to be with in the way to those fulfilments.

Apart from that, I think I am not as complex as I appear to be. In contrast, I am only a simple human being that is cautious about the future without forgetting the past –the agreeable and the unpleasant experiences I have been through. Sometimes, this complexity which seems to characterise me has caused some misunderstandings in my relationships. Not a few friends of mine have told me that the first time they met me they thought about me being a boorish, intolerant person who only was interested in himself and not in others. However, when they got to know me, they agreed on the fact that this first impression I produce on others is a carapace I have in order to prevent my susceptibilities or weak points being discovered.

Although I prefer winter, this photograph taken in a spring-like warm day gives a powerful sense of authenticity. Trying to hide myself behind a leafy tree as the sun was intensely shining, I started appreciating the distinct ways in which families and individuals had fun and enjoyed their lives. During that camping afternoon next to La Florida dyke, unassuming people could be easily distinguished in the crowd when receiving a mate or helping their children to fly their kites. Being conscious that it was not the first time I contemplated simple things happening around me, I did know it was the first time in which I realised I was being as glad as the people surrounding me –in fact, we were sharing the same way of enjoying life.